Marrion Waynor

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So August had arrived on Sunday this year. I've lost track of time for a moment there. It has been a busy month, mostly with the sports thingy. For your information, we just held our so called "Inter-Complex Games" competition yesterday. This event was supposed to be some kind of Olympics for us who are working here. 'Chillax-LD' region against the 'serious-Tawau' region. And guess who had won? None other than the host itself, LD FTW! And all thanks to the 2 tele-match, so called "Giant Slipper" and the hilarious "Row boat Race". Nevertheless, congratulations to all LD region participants who took part, who had showed utmost spirit and energy to give their best in the event that they participated.

Another quiet and resting Sunday for me today, so I guess i'll be enjoying this 1 day to rest, eat and sleep.

It used to be nice, filled with joys and laughter. Everything was near perfect, wonderful and flawless. In short, it was like an experience given by GOD to show the greatness and how beautiful this place called Heaven. Everyone would be craving a piece of it. But now, things changed. Changed to the ugliest, most hurting experience that someone have to go through..

"Happy Endings are just for fairy tales".. Come to think about it, it actually sounded right although most people grew up with fairy tales. Who would not want it to end nicely? Not all things that we actually planned, can be materialized. It's very sad to think back about things that we've given our fullest of effort and energy and in the end destroyed easily without being able to do anything. "Destruction is always easier than construction". Especially when it involves human feelings or emotions. It always affect the mind and the soul deeply, if not the deepest of all.

But things doesn't happen just like that. The "reason" always accompany the "thing-that-happen". Some rose up to it, some defeated by it. But whatever the reason is, we always have options. People can always choose whether it should started in the first place or not. "To be or not to be", "to or not to" and the list goes on.. It's true that we as human beings could only plan, GOD himself will decide whether to let it be or not. But if we had planned it wrongly or badly in the first place, don't expect HIM to rectify the judgments and decisions that we have made. Hence the saying, "We can only plan, HE will decide".

Whatever it is, things will show up their true colors eventually. Sooner or later it'll become clearer. And it'll find its way back to its origin. "what comes around, goes around".

p/s: Btw, this is Will, messing up this blog space after quite some time..

I'm back!! Will be blogging more often after this.. So just wait..

-Will-

Serioushit! I just read a Lesbian's couple blog! Oh my, what did I miss recently?

So, I am off today to continue the next part of If Yesterday Happened Again.

I have moved to this new area, Sentul. Renting together with one of my colleagues and a friend of hers. That makes three of us living in the house. Mind you, I was so excited moving. Don't get me wrong of the word excited. I, of course, still love Shah Alam, to have stayed with my cousins and especially with the 2 adorable-cute kids at home. But then, some factors have to be taken into account and such. To travel from Shah Alam to the office, I think that was the obvious reason I decided to move. Thinking that I am spending five out of seven days in a week to the office, considering the congestion route I have to endure daily, the fuel, the unfixed time I reach home after working so on and so forth, yes, moving to a closer place would be great. After few discussions of this matter, (with mommy and sister), I have got an approval. People, I am in a stone away about to reach 25, and I am still like asking for permissions to this and that.

A said; "You now stand on your own feet, make your own decision"

B said; "You gotta be kidding me, you still ask??? Like for real???"

C said; "You should have decided awal-awal lagi"

D said; "So sweet, mommy's girl"

LOL, to be honest it still feel like only yesterday I have been away from my family, never once I thought to be this far, I meant, OK, to some of you KL might be a stone away, but to me, I think I am more to this type of home-person, a sick-home-person, or whatever phrase could express how home-sick I would get once I am away,

I still remember that I never failed to go home on weekends during University time, glad it happened local, not even West Malaysia and Labuan (not again) or Sarawak. I used to give blank promises to my besties back then, telling that, Okay, Marrion would stay back this weekend, but NO, maybe once or twice, due to undone assignments.

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My current place is quite convenient. Why is that? LRT East Sentul Station is a minute-walk! Mind you! Taa-daa. But eversince day 1 I stayed there, only day 1 I managed to use the so-called-facility because I am still fail to go back on time, 0500pm. Looking at my unorganized-time-to-go-home-schedule, I prefer to ride with Jack! The greatest companion ever, credit to Mister Jack! For 3 consequitive days, I am still safe to drive go and return daily with only 2-bars left on my fuel meter! Yeay, I am spending less than RM30 weekly on fuel. Managing my bucks wisely, (lar sangat, LOL)!! With the great view of KLCC and KL Tower from our level-20 balcony, what could we asked more. I mean, we are totally in the heart of the city, yep, I know there is nothing to be proud of and no we are not seeking that so-called-city-life and all, but yeah, enough said, I am happy with my current place.

Independent. I do not dare saying I am being indie now, sigh! I have people around me who are maybe just a born-good-Samaritan and yeah, I adore and wholly admire the value of friendship offered, given and that I go speechless! The previous company's background I used to work with and now, a lot of differences! I dare not stating them here, or I may caused myself an issue, LOL! But to be fair, let me just say some good things I have encountered through my so-called-being-employed-life;

1. I have this circle where I can b*tch freely!
2. I have Sabahans, Sarawakians and West Malaysia colleagues, which fulfil my 1Malaysia's context! LOL, I am a go-go-government's side now? Ops, YES I AM, Mr PM.
3. I LAUGH-OUT-LOUD a lot, anytime, anywhere!
4. I built friendships and networks, inside or outside the organizations!
5. I experienced unexpected events.
6. I wall-climb, hill-climb and mountain-climb and trekking for times. Like you just cannot imagined, how would Marrion turned into that! *Rolling-eyes
7. Made some decisions without my mom's and sister's approval first!
8. I encountered to meet some I-can-trust-and-rely-on-people!
9. I AM BEING SO INDEPENDENT DAY BY DAY, uwexx, LOL!

So, I have listed 9 things. But hey, maybe we can pass on No. 1 and Lucky No. 7. Uh-ohh, anyone could be reading this. I treasure every moment, that is for sure. I just do not want any betrayals.

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I have spent a lot recently. Gosh, you really do not want to know. I spent pathetically and now I am ill and suffering, LOL! I really missed the days when mommy and sister used to pay everything or else shower me with some amount of bucks to spree. But nowadays, since I am so employed and working and getting my always-seem-to-insufficient-pay, gosh, sometimes the mannequins disgusted me, awww! The suckiest part, (pardon my slang), I even can puke when my bucks ilmited my spree activity, yikes! Moving on, I am controlling my bucks flow slowly. This is the hardest part. Seriously, I hope someone would come and give a hand to hold my wallet and my cards, so that I would not go crazy spending. Lesson learnt, I believed most of us have watched The Confessions Of A Shopaholic.  

I am still in the process of getting my study table and book shelf. Class to start this July and I am so excited like stepping to kinder world.

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Will write more later, I just skipped my lunch! Ha ha, I so love you blog. Period.

When you dyingly saying, I have not change, your act of denying has just shown it.

xoxo

"Good night my gorgeous stella, I miss you so much, yet you never realize. I was there, always, you never know.."

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Days flew so fast that Ashley has almost forgotten it will be Seth's birthday this coming Friday. She has been thinking on where to celebrate, but then kept on putting the thought aside as she thinks Seth must have another plan on his birthday. To make it worst, she has been abandoning him for the past few days due to the tonnes of works she had to endure. But the works actually made her alive, known to be as workaholic-chick at work, she always went back late, not because she wanted to, like not even close to that but she required to be so. As for today, she wears this pair of baju kurung which was tailored by her mom's bestfriend. Everyone admires her!

Caleb! Has been acting so odd lately after the dinner incident with Ashley. It was a total rejection for him and Caleb is not this type of guy who easily could accept a rejection like that. What a big humiliation, he thought, that a girl would resist him. He has everything. The look - he is undeniably one drop dead gorgeous creature on Earth, career-wise he is undoubtedly excel in his field, money - he affords one exclusive penthouse on his own and possesed a 3-series BMW, not forgetting his parents owned few mega-companies in KL, but no, those things never have attracted Ashley. And that left Caleb dumbfounded, what he is lacking until he was rejected by this completely-exquisite-adorable-witty-petite-Ashley!!! He won hundreds girls' before and they all utterly fall head-to-toe on him, but this time, for the very first in his life, he was rejected.

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Thursday night and Ashley was still staring at her desktop. Suddenly a text came;

Seth: Hi, I was thinking, did I do anything wrong?? I have been waiting waiting and waiting like a rock here! You never text after the dinner, which I thought you were okay with it. Was it the kiss? Well you can be mad at me at that very moment but don't torture me like this :-( Ashey, seriously, were you mad?! Missing you, pls text, pls1000000x

And came to her surprise that Seth was actually thought she mad at her, she replied something like this;

Ashley: Oh you silly-nilly Seth! How could you assumed that! Hey, I was busy, like hell! Works kill! But never once I forgot about you, never! Anyway, I think it's someone's birthday tomorrow, and I was thinking for a night out? Well, I know you would have some plans so just text me when you are available, kay? xx

Zzzttt-zzttt, a text appeared.

Seth: For God sake Ashey, I thought you'd never ask! Like you have totally abandoned me! I miss you, miss you like 100000000000xx, you know!! You better know! You drive me crazy, you managed to! Ask Lolly! He he, yea, glad that you do remember. So here I am, Seth is asking Ashley for a date? Err, I mean a night out, to celebrate my born-day?? Totally have cancelled the rest invitations! Ohh, I am totally booked by Ashley!

So, the text went on and they have finally set the date tomorrow to be their night out together!

Suddenly,

"Hey, you free to talk? 5 minutes is all I need, please?" Caleb, out of nowhere came. She thought she was all alone.

"Gosh, Caleb! I thought you left and you know what, there is nothing else to talk about, I mean, what else are there to talk about?" Ashley pulled her hair back without even give him a look.

"Please! 5 minutes and I will leave for good Ashley," He has never been begging like this to a girl before, and this girl has really drive him crazy.

"Fine, the clock is ticking and your 5 minutes start now," Ashley somehow thought to give it a break. 5 minutes will not going to destroy her.

"Thanks! Really appreciate it! I am sorry for the dinner we had last time, I was over-reacted. But I just want to let you know that, I am falling for you, Ashley! Each day I saw you only made this feeling inside growing stronger. I can't help falling for you. Christ sake, I love you! I know this is insane but I really do! I have never been so frank to any girl before, you know the type of guy I am. But now, I think this feeling is killing me. I can't focus on works, all I see is only you. I almost hit this car last night at Star Hill because I was staring so bad to this lady whom I thought was you! Damn, I paid amount of money to the guy because I did actually give him a scratch. But then she was not you. You drive me crazy since the first day I saw you, you know. The lift incident, the notes left at your car windscreen, the roses and cards, gosh, you never know," Caleb took such a deep breath.

He looked pretty disturbed.

Ashley was totally shocked! Damn!

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To be continued peeps xx

 

"I do hope this dinner could be more special the next time we are dining together," said Caleb while placing his warm right hand on hers. Like really for the first time a colleague who is out from nowhere touched her hands so close like that.

"Caleb, please don't get me wrong here. This is supposed to be a colleague to a colleague dinner, remember?" Ashley tried to put some gaps during the conversation.

"But I thought this is a beginning for us, you know, to give us some times to get to know each other better? This is a good starting, don't you think so?" he insisted of gripping Ashley's hand.

The dinner has turned out to be the worst one ever as it ended when Ashley purposely scream "PERVERT-BITCH" to Caleb somewhere in the middle of the conversation.

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"So, where is it again we are heading to?" Ashley seemed to be drfited away for a moment.

"Ashey, are you alright? You seemed to be like disturbed."

That was so sweet of you, buddy! How I wished you would not realize about my uneasiness now. But you left before, you left me while I was so in need of someone, while I was deeply hurt, you left just like that, telling me you have to pursue your study abroad.

"Oh, I am fine Seth, it's just some works at the office, grrr," she said as to distract herself from letting out more secrets that are better left untold.

After some tracks from the Oldies genre, they reached to this fine dining area in town. One of the most exclusive area, should to elaborate more. They served Italian, Japanese, Monacan, Brazilian, you name it!

"Italian cuisine it is tonight, la mia stella brillante! You siete la donna che più bella ho visto mai!" Seth was graduated from University of Bologna, ranked to be the best university in Italy. Majoring in Ingegneria Civile (Civil Engineering), similar to Ashley, minus that she pursued her locally.

"Aha, so now someone is really speaking Italian, I hate you! You know that I don't know those words! You could have been bitching on me, aren't you?" Ashley went red all the way as the waitress next to her waiting for her order smiled at her sweetly.

"Ohh, not to worry Madam, your boyfriend is admiring you, seriously!" said her.

Since Ashley barely know any of Italian's cuisine, except for the pizzas, bolognese and the world notable Italian dessert, the Tiramisu, Ashley handed the menu to Seth. So, basically these were what Seth has placed for their menu that night:

Aperitivo (appetizer): Null, because to start something with wine is so not Ashley!

So, they skipped that and jumped for Antipasto: which Ashley literally rejected too as well, because she wanted it to be lighter-meals at dinner-time.

Finally after a few of here and there arguements, they ended up with this:

1. Focaccia; and

2. Prosciutto di Parma; and

3. Apulia, as for Dolce; and

4. Biserin, an Italian coffee, a mixture of Cappucino and and traditional hot chocolate and with a small addition of milk.

The waitress seemed to be all amused with them both, such a lovely couple, she said to herself. But no, they are yet to be one..

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"Seth, do you mind to stop by at the gas station? I need some water."

Seth gave it a nod and he bought her one bottled-water and himself a 100-Plus.

"Ashey, so why would you quit from O-N-G industry? I thought you enjoyed spending your time with all those platforms and dirts and of course the perks!" Seth started the conversation that she always wanted to avoid.

"Maybe we could talk about this some other times?" that was the end of it.

"Fine, I'll send you home now, you should take some rest, okay?" Seth, always try to be the best buddy in the world.

The Volvo made a right-turn and that was it, they are at Ashley's blocks. After giving a quick kiss at Seth's left cheek, she made her way out.

"Ashey!" A quick yet sweet kiss spilled at her lips. "Yeay, I got it tonight!" Seth was making this tongue-out expression like a small little boy, a cute little boy, indeed!

"That was so a jackass, ha ha, you silly-nilly Seth!" Ashey waved and headed straight away to her door.

"Good night my gorgeous stella, I miss you so much, yet you never realize. I was there, always, you never know.."

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Peeps, gotta continue later!

 

 

Excerpted from last post;

"Oh, it's no biggie, really! Those pair of earrings worth my time. Anyway, shall we?" he said as leading her to his Volvo XC60.

"So, where to?" she asked.

"To my favourite place, I am not sure whether you gonna like it or not, though, but so far I haven't heard any of negative comments," he gave a big grin and a wink to her.

Ashley, on the other hand was still thinking of what had happened last night. It was kind of a mistake taking a dinner invitation from her own colleague, worst more, just a few units of cubicles. And the dinner ended terribly bad. How odd! And the cause was because of this:

"I do hope this dinner could be more special the next time we are dining together," said Caleb while placing his warm right hand on hers. Like really for the first time a colleague who is out from nowhere touched (to be continued, AGAIN)

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What a green day today, but actually I am wearing my Padini-with-stripes-in-Grey with my Black-Padini-skirt. It is so nice to see the trees, the leaves in Green colour which indicates nature! We love mother-nature!

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So, I am now in the office. The clock is approaching to 1430. My colleagues are having a blast watching "Adnan Sempit", which played by Shahiezy Sam and Intan Ladyana. Ha ha, this movie is not that bad actually. I watched it before and yeah I was laughing out loud myself, but to only some parts where I could actually follow their conversations. Even worst, I maybe absorbed the real jokes quite aback because I could only blurted out laughing after all the movie-goers finished theirs, duh! But why would I care, so long I still get the whole meaning in the end :D This room went to a big roar for times and yeah, of course we had fun :D

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Dear friends, I would like to tell you a story.. But keep in mind that this is a story irrelated with you, be those who still lived or dead. This is only a piece of something that I have started writing years ago. But should you feel it is something reminisce to you, heck me not! for this is only a spur of mind.

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He was there standing still, looking at his Fossil timepiece, waiting patiently to this lady, whom he has fall for head over heels, since months ago. Wearing casually a pair of wear-looked-Levis and his favourite Calvin Klein collared-shirt, he suddenly turned around when he realized this scent of perfume he really adore with, J'Adore by Christian Dior.

Ohh, there you are, my gorgeous, I would not mind the time to make me wait for you, for you, gorgeous! Ugh, she is melting me!

"Hey you, sorry to have made you wait. Gosh, it was this pair of earrings to caused me the late! Sorry?" said her sweetly such a perfect rhyme to his ears. Of course I would not mind waiting for you, gorgeous! Be it 1000 years, I would be right here waiting.

"Oh, it's no biggie, really! Those pair of earrings worth my time. Anyway, shall we?" he said as leading her to his Volvo XC60.

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Yeay, I have so many works that I have to postponed this story for today. But keep on tracking because I am going to get back here to continue this story. Okay, so this is only the initial and I bet you cannot wait for the rest of it :D

Till then, have to complete some undone works.

xoxo

p/s: oh crap! I am still scanning some papers in the office :(( *bummer