First of all, CONGRATULATIONS to my beloved brother, Freddy and his lovely wife, Elsie, which people said really look alike me :D It's been a while. Uhm, second thing of all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Juliet aka Iyon aka Marrion :D for stepping to another one year, THANKS TO BE GOD!!! (Well actually strikethrough that Juliet, don't know who started calling me that :p) Third thing of all, I am missing everyone back at home pretty bad, very BAD actually, gah, plus Jessica and Mark are on their way home now :(( Let's talk about the wedding first! Sniff-sniff LOVE in the air!! Ah, finally, eventually, my bro's married!! Married y'all, SELAMAT TINGGAL BUJANG, hopefully SELAMAT TINGGAL ALCOHOL too, GOD seriously he's been drinking and drinking and he's actually losing all that macho-ness and handsome-ness he used to have before!! His tummy is like 8-months preggy and owhh, I am missing him the way he used to be!! People, those who know him reading, do cover him in your prayer :D So I went back to Sabah for good, took a week leave (which I regretted in the end because the duration is just so insufficient)!! My sister and bro-in-law fetched me at Terminal 2, AHH, good to be home again! Of course as expected earlier, my sister questioned my hair, well whatever, I know she's complimenting but in a sarcastic way, you don't know my sister, get to know her and that's it, dead end with stories ha ha. So we went to Karamunsing and 1B! Ahh, Sabahans totally proud of it :D Actually I didn't really care about those shopping and all, all I cared about was just to be home in PIASAU!! That's it, rumah putih, zink biru, yang ada mami, tina', Indus, Stib, Grace, Elsie. And of course my heroes, my 3 beloved nephews, Anwar, Ikhmal and Hairel. Oh not to forget, Rinna, Regina, just those people in PIASAU!! So actually we reached home at late evening, dub dab dub dab, WOWWWWWWWWW, I can see they were preparing the gongs, so many people at home helping out for everything they could!! I love these people, the unity, the knot is very well kept and OMG, I gotta thank God for everything because without these people my bro's wedding would not be as happening as it had been. So, I hugged everyone, I just didn't care whoever they are, I just can only cry and laugh in the same time, the feeling was REAL GREAT, then I saw there, that someone standing inside the house, the face that I've been longing for less in 3 months, MY MOM, JUST MOMMY, OMG, I just can't help it, entered the house and just hugging, felt like the time stopped for seconds and to be within her arms is the best thing ever! Then the heroes and just everyone! OMG if you just can feel what I feel!! OK enough said, or else I'll sob again! Hey i gotta go, see ya, will be back right after!! XOXOX To be continued :D

Really aware that I shouldn't be doing it now, but I just want to say that I am so stucked in the middle of nowhere. I hope things will get better soon, I mean very soon, and we'll get to know who the real Mastermind is. Oh Lord, may it be some others that have never cross to my mind.

I was having such a great time last Saturday and I'm going to miss it forverer. Guess I screwed up again. I miss someone! Oh shitty, I never have felt something like this before.

P/S: He's just NOT that into you, sad but true :D

So I should not be doing this actually, since it's only 10 in the morning. But I just want to say something that I feel like want to share with you..

Okay, I was about to delete this blog the other day once I found out that ONE should not have a blog, especially when you are a government servant. Well, I know that will refers only to those who actually creating a blog in a way having those politics issues, discrimination, racism, and of course not involving the PERSONAL one, I mean, like this blog, like my Wilmar's Blog! So put it in a second thought and I said to myself; "Hey, I am not writing some sentiments here, it's just about me, myself and my thoughts about the small-small things that attract my attention!". And that's it, today officially, at this very moment, in this very place, my office, I'll be starting my blogging thingy again. Sorry for the long pause of posting any entries before, you see I was so deeply in the process of thinking whether to just drop it off or actually to continue it. As for the conclusion, I am back, I am so back and to those who asked; "Where were you", "Why you went missing", etc, thanks for your very much concerns and HERE I AM now :D

I'll be posting some entries soon, and surely I've a lot of stories to share!!

XOXO

Just received a call from my sister telling that she's on her way to Hospital to visit my "Ina", my grandmother who's currently ill, suddenly fell down outside the house. Still don't get what was realy happening but this scares me because she's so stubborn, working very hard in her age and she always complain about her health condition. But then, she's very stubborn and reluctantly take our advises. My God, I hope nothing so bad happens. I'm starting to chill...

Now I am listening to Leona Lewis "I will be".. But of course my thoughts are back at home. Tried to call mom but no answer. I bet everyone is worrying there now!! I only met Ina last recently and this thing happens. Is it the right time to be sad again?? I am so confused, been crying frequently recently.. I hate the part that I am being so childish and dependent.. My sister is coming tonight and hopefully can see her very soon..

I don't want to tell any of my stories back at home recently, as they would only hurt my feelings.. Sob, believe it or not, I'm dropping some tears again!! What a pathetic I am!!

Gotta go :((

I am kind of not feeling well, actually been thinking of homiey few days back and I hope I still can tolerate this feeling until 7th of March. Yeay, mark your calendar everyone, Marrion is going back home on that day until the 9th. Yea yea, I know it's just a 3D2N period, but who the hell cares??!! So long I manage to get home and be at home, that's what I am concern about. Can't wait to hug everyone at home, to congratulate my brother for his coming engagement (well he'll be having one on this 28th and I will not be there), cuddle up with my nephews, meeting my friends, makan MI SUP, having joyride around town and the list goes on...

Now I am quite inspired to write.. So during the Kursus, I have to say that I actually really love the part when I can build networking around the colleagues. A savvy networking would actually help you to develop an effective communication among your workmates and hence you won't be feeling you're alone along your career pathway. The first 3-days was more into developing TEAMWORK and we were actually shuffle here and there to form one team. Those who met new pals, will make new friends, those who actually have to stick within the same group, have to bear the existing members :D So basically, I've been into several groups with different leaders. But yes, it's a normal thing when you have some dissatisfaction within your team. Overall, I am happy with all the teams I've involved with. Especially to do with the "Fox Web", it's AWESOME, eventhough actually we were the 2nd last group to end the journey. Being blindfolded and came to happen at night, it's rather challenging yet enjoyable!! Plus, with the egg thingy that we actually had to ensure safely not broken by those "FOXES" :D Oh boy, would miss that part!! Luckily mine was safely in my pocket and 3 out of 9 eggs were manage to be taken care of!

Came to its end (the Teambuilding session), we stepped into lecturing session, more on giving exposure about JKR, its stakeholders etc. There were about 14 lectures I guess and I would say sometimes I could take a nap during the session. Oppssiee.. But the talks were worth it, plus the notes given, it actually really will help during the PTK examination later! God, I heard it's kind of hard and there will be an Induction Course which is VERY IMPORTANT in order for us to get confirmed to our post now! Whattaaa.. So basically, we are under probation! Having 6 times of meals daily, was something could be good to some and could be bad to some. As for me, I feel like it's kind of a loss, since I don't really eat a lot and I actually skipped few meals a day. Depends on the food as well, but the breakfast is "Waalllaaa", tip-top and the desserts are fantastic! Well thanks to the Palm Garden Hotel anyway :D

We also had this Learning Journal, where we had to deliver sort of a speech, Public Speaking, to enhance your skills in giving effective verbal communication followed by a Q&A seesion and an evaluation given by your appointed evaluator. I must say I got an interesting topic, which is about "The Future of Hydropower In Malaysia" and I believed I've done my best minus the shortage of time upon it. Well, this is actually always happen to me, even during my school time, for debate or public speaking, the proposed time is always insufficient :D However I am unsure whether people actually understood about my topic but from what the reaction and feedbacks I got, all of them are positive and I hope it's for REAL :D Then we actually have this Monitorku Sayang, ha ha ha, can't help laughing!!! It's actually more or less like the "Guardian Angel" we always organized at church. So, I got a name and that person was actually near to me everyday (lagi tue!) Imagine everytime I wanted to write a text for him, he's actually just in front of me, grrr!! Ha ha towards the end of the day, he actually easily trace me out and yea lah, I just made a grin which I was actually unsatisfy he knew it was me!! The person got my name was rather easily found out as well :D :D Funny though initially I thought it was another colleague, which was actually sitting one row with us! Then when I made another anticipation, it was SO TRUE and ha ha ha, I still can't help laughing. He was commenting on my shirts' colour, my blazer, my presentation, my shoes, my towel, ha ha, does he really have to comment such things?? As for me, I just state basic things, not even commenting but just plainly giving more confidence on him that he can do the presentation (sudah la topic kami pun sama!!) ha ha ha, just can't help laughing!!!

So now I am waiting for my sister to mail me dad's Death Certificate :( It's one of the IMPORTANT documents that I did not bring and needed by the HR person for I don't know what purpose. Good thing I heard is that we'll be getting our very 1st earning on the 28th of February 2009!! Ngehehe, can't wait to see how much we'll be getting :D :D Let the $$ do the shopping later yaa..

Guess I've to stop now, I kind of missing something which I believe that person is.......

Marrion's signin' out XOXO

Part 1

Well, how to start?! Guess I'll just commence with the fact that my legs are aching and bruising, my lips are cracking and I missed my 8 hours rest a day, sighing. But hey, that's the only negative things that occured during the previous 7 days I've been through. Now let's go to the great things that I believe have made my days yet made the course so useful to me. I made lots of friends, I got to know lots of GREAT people yet HUMBLE, I found out myself as a THINKER, I created replicas, I gave an impromptu speech, I managed to be a good mentor and had such a good MONITOR, I managed to fill up my physical test (eventhough actually I did not manage to finish on time and did not manage to lift my partner to the end, he he, I am a weak person and I admit it that way. I accept the way I am but believe me, I actually always try to build my stamina and I am not that stupid to make fool of myself and God has given me a BRAIN to balance myself), last but not least I be myself and I accepted others' opinions openly.

Just talk to mommy, and now I am so sleepy. Will be writing back tomorrow for the 2nd part of the previous exciting experiences that I've gained. Thank God, You always made me stand firm on your solid ground and I believe You have something there.. Miss mommy so bad!!!!!!

Gong xi Gong xi.. Yes people, today is the day when all the Chinese celebrating their new year and that is why I am using RED font colour today!

Regarding to the title of my post today, yep, it is my beloved cousin, Judith's Engagement day, with her fiance, Carl. Well I am not sure whether the spelling is correct, I hope so! And while all our relatives gathered in kampung now, here we are, me myself, Max, Jessica, Mark and Odin celebrating our own CNY, LOLs. Haven't prepare anything yet, but planning to do so :D Talked to my uncle just now since I missed to pick his call yesterday. Told him about my whereabouts and my experiences in this new environment. Most of all about JKR. Not to forget mentioning about my first posting which is supposedly in Kelantan, duhh. And I was like hearing some voices saying; "Nunu?? Kelantan??", ha ha very funny! But hey, I managed to be based in KL, lucky me huh.. Now we are still sharing a table, 3 of us to be exact, he he, due to the largest enrollment of Civil Engineers from MOW this year. But they said it will be fixed up right away after this looong holidays, hopefully! Thought that working with the government is not as hard as in private sector, but when I heard of these PTK, BTN and all, it's kind of worrying, you know, the feeling of scared that you won't be able to do it or may be pass the exams, euwww..

The weather here is kind of cloudy now, it's like going to rain in awhile. Really reminds me of the weather back in Sabah while I was there back then. And now my thoughts are spinning back to kampung; "What are they doing now?", "Are they missing us here, realize about our absence there?", "Guess they are having this gossiping among them and having fun and makan-makan and all"... Sighing, miss kampung! But this is the challenge that I really have to go through now I believe, being strong physically and mentally!!!

Now I feel like want to rest for awhile.. Gosh, need a break, this smell of Ridsect made my head dizzy!!!

xoxo

So, this is so my first week in Peninsular, well in Shah Alam for sure. What a blessing, it's a 4-days cuti in a row dude!!! My body is so tired back 5 days due to the hassle during my reporting for duty session. Been here and there for registration purpose, up and down and FINALLY; I am based in JKR Headquarter's KL, Corporate Sector (Human Resource Unit). Yea, you heard me, if you feel like want to drop by, feel free to visit me at 4th floor of Public Works Department, KL :D

Naahh, recalling back the day that I found out myself to be posted in Kelantan, it's still a nightmare. Doesn't mean I don't like Kelantan but I don't have anybody there, plus I just came here to settle down, now I have to be there to settle down again? I mean, how could I adapt and work there if my heart belongs to another place? So tried my best to get a transfer and yes, GOD, thank you for everything!

So started working and I really am still blur, don't know what actually I should do, what's Human Resource, I mean I heard of it before but I never had a thought that I'll be in this field. Won't use my technical knowledge for awhile, but in the system, everyone will have the chance to feel in all sector of the department. It's like a rotation! I hope I could give my best shot and that's what matters.

Now I am with Max! He's busy browsing his friend's blog and I am updating mine. It's so hot in here, still remember back in Sabah it used to rain everyday! Now talking about Sabah, the feeling of missing everyone at home come, grrrr. Seriously, I still am not fully I am here, sigh... It's good that Max is here and feels so like homiey. Will is busy at the mill, well most probably he'll go to work again tomorrow, umm, missing him too. But I guess this is life, God has His own plans and it's the goodness for everyone, so let's just see what happens next, yaaa?

Next week, will go to work by Komuter, so that I can stop troubling Mark and Jessica. Jessica's due is either this end of February or early March, all of us can't wait the coming of new member in the family :D

Umm, guess I've to take nap for awhile, kind of sleepy and just want to lay down to rest. I still remember how terrible my first week is. Sleep for only 6 hours a day, (OK I know this is maybe terlebih suda for some, but me I need some more) and 6-7am here is like 5-6am in Sabah, adui mak, lagilah I am not motivated to wake up at all. 6-7pm here is like 5-6pm in Sabah, tend to delay my shower time and all. Gosh! But I believe I could cope to this and I really can't wait to venture JKR!!!! Awesome

Have a good day everyone, and Gong Xi Fa Chai, xin nian quai le.. Poor Max, he's having running nose, akakaka..

XOXO, God bless..

Apparently there are some technical problems that I can't post the piccies during my Farewell, but if happen you're free, please visit my Facebook: yon_minx@yahoo.com.

Now I am currently at Shah Alam, at my very kind-hearted cousin's place, Jessica. Oh boy, God knows how I've been troubling Jessica's family these few days. Taking me from LCCT, give me a space to stay in, sending and taking me from home to MOW (Ministry of Works), enough say! God do bless this family and give them good health that I don't think I'll be able to pay all these goodness.

My first day went to work;

Was from Cheras to KL. Cheras is my kakak angkat place and I wish to thank her as well for being so caring to help me settle down on my first day, sorry for all the troubles encountered! First day was good, get to know a bunch of new people and I could say some have been very helpful and welcoming! At times I was like afraid to start a conversation but as this mouth can't help to stay shut, I really have to talk to the person next to me :) Ha ha, funny though when they thought I am locally KL. Then when I explained I'm from Sabah, they were like puzzled and surprised. (Ahxx, punyalah, cya Kadus bah!)

2nd day, which is today was OK too. Minus the heavy traffic congestion along the Federal highway, oh gosh, along the way I suppose! But I still reach at the office (temporarily actually, haha the Dewan is our office) sharp 0830hrs. Yea, I know it was real close but please give me a break during this opening. Today we get to know where we'll be based and the answer just announced.

Of all the 360 Civil Engineers (BTW, this is the largest enrollment so far the MOW has arranged) me plus two other colleagues from Sabah were posting to JKR Kesedar, Tanah Merah, Kelantan. I was like lost for seconds and I can't believe my eyes reading that, that I asked someone else to double-check it for me! "A'ah, betul la U dapat Kelantan" said the anonymous that re-check for me. Adui, I feel like a large stone fell on my head that I want to faint. Straight away went to meet my coursemate, and she also cannot believe it!! I couldn't express here how sad and frustrated I was at that moment. Can't even call my mom, sister and brother. In my mind I just thought that I need company and yess, Jessica again was my saviour. She came with her husband, Mark and I explained everything, crying that I really cannot go that far. When I texted my mom, she gave me the same expression, can't believe that I am actually about to go to Kelantan. Sooooooobbbbbbbbbbbbbb!!!

Met friends from Sabah, Sarawak and in the midst of too many people, there's this someone sent by an angel, a lovely person, she urged me to relocate and go negotiate with the top management in front. She companied me and she explained to me that if so happen I can find someone "suka sama suka" to relocate, there will be an opportunity. Initially of course I can't find anyone, because when I said I got Kelantan, even those in Peninsular itself was like, "Huh?".. That has really worsening my condition. I was so alone but then again, maybe the Holy Spirit was around, that lovely person again came and gosh, she brought someone, a guy who is a Kelantanian posted in Putrajaya wished to relocate to his hometown. I don't know how to thank her that she just not there when I wanted to see her back! GOSH! But I think she really hope that I can relocate so I with that guy went to meet the focal person! At first he was so not that entertaining then only he decided to meet again after lunch. Went to meet Jessica and I can't be myself but just being one very PITY girl.

Sharp 1400hrs, we went directly to 4th floor of JKR KL to continue the discussion. Of course not only us, but lots of couples there wanted to swap to each other! Once in my thought, the chances are slim but what I can do is just try and see what happens next! And then when our turn came, I just being honest, do the talking and the guy did help too.

God God God, how wonderful and merciful You are, tomorrow I am going back to JKR KL again to take my new pinform. And yeay, that guy will be serving to his state and I'll be in Putrajaya! Thank God, now I am speechless and got to go to sleep...

Sweet dreams everyone, remember God is always there! ALWAYS!

 

Dear readers, good evening. Here I am jotting another post and it's raining out there.

 

Yea people, you heard me, I just resigned from my ex-company on the 090109 and I've to mark that as one of my memorable days in life. Brief on my history employment there;

 

Joined the company on June 23^rd '08 and I must say, I've learned a lot and have the chance to meet lots of people. Gone through happy and sad moments, go back to the office on Saturday to complete those important reports, stay back in the office (again to finish the reports), some paper jammed incidents (luckily Elly was there), unavoidable misunderstood situations, laugh hard while I can, cry badly when I think it's appropriate, came late because of the malfunctioning traffic lights (sigh), flat tires (you don't want to see my worry face), outstation, meetings, datelines, and many more thingsss. I have to say that I've been so attached to some very kind-hearted people there; Elly Joy, Dinah, Shirney, Fettie, Janet, Clarice, Sandra, Leona, Joy, Jalynn, the technicians, uhh, almost everyone! They are like my sisters and brothers!! I must say that even though it is only a short period, they've really mean a lot to me and I hope they won't easily forget me L L

 

So since I'm quitting there, I really didn't know that they actually has set up a gathering for me, something that never cross to mind since everyone is busy because of it is still midst of New Year and everyone is settling down with it. During 090109, around 1230++ they asked me to go downstairs to join them, OK, I said to myself; Fine, this is hurting and since it's the girls calling, I go, with Elly of course (this person, she's been hiding everything from the beginning, duh punya lah). We were like berlari-lari anak to the Mezzanine floor. Came to the door, it was locked and I was like puzzled for seconds. So we knocked hard on the door saying; Buka cepat ni pintu, kalau inda.. Then the door opened, and surprisingly there was like 30 persons inside, how bewildered I was and, Oh shoot, they set me up. OMG, I just can't stop tears falling down and I feel so silly! Duh..

 

So people, here are some of the snapshots and OK I may look childish crying, but that's just me..

 

*Piccies in next page, hi hi*