Just received a call from my sister telling that she's on her way to Hospital to visit my "Ina", my grandmother who's currently ill, suddenly fell down outside the house. Still don't get what was realy happening but this scares me because she's so stubborn, working very hard in her age and she always complain about her health condition. But then, she's very stubborn and reluctantly take our advises. My God, I hope nothing so bad happens. I'm starting to chill...

Now I am listening to Leona Lewis "I will be".. But of course my thoughts are back at home. Tried to call mom but no answer. I bet everyone is worrying there now!! I only met Ina last recently and this thing happens. Is it the right time to be sad again?? I am so confused, been crying frequently recently.. I hate the part that I am being so childish and dependent.. My sister is coming tonight and hopefully can see her very soon..

I don't want to tell any of my stories back at home recently, as they would only hurt my feelings.. Sob, believe it or not, I'm dropping some tears again!! What a pathetic I am!!

Gotta go :((